Indecision

    

                                                         

 It's my first post. yay!

Making decisions, for me, is just. . . crazy. The sad thing is that I have to. Everyday!

I can't imagine it's so for everybody. I mean, really!

Some people just know which option is right [or appropriate] without so much as batting an eyelid.

I can't say I don't envy them.*sigh*

In buying toothpaste: Closeup menthol chill or Closeup white now?

For breakfast: rice or plain ol' yam?

In my free time: to watch a movie or to read a book?

Going out: the red shirt or the green shirt?

At the boutique: pumps or sandals?

To browse: Mozilla firefox or Internet explorer? [this is one of the easier ones though]

Heck, to blog or not to blog??

And i could go on...and on.

On many occasions, I've picked option a over b and had to deal with regret afterwards, mumbling over and over to myself: "if only i had picked b..." but then it's not always that difficult. I've had some "decision-easy" moments, and they were awesome. Totally. It's like this breeze of certainty blows, overwhelms me, and when I say that's it, it really is it.

I didn't know what I wanted to name my blog right away. I had to sleep over it; for a day and a half. Choosing a URL was an even bigger decision for me, after several uncreative attempts at manipulating my names and nicknames came back to me as unavailable, I left the page, closed the browser, and shutdown. It was time to sleep. And yea, I'm a sleeper. What can I say? I love my sleep.

Anyway,

"Here, still standing" came to mind, and it stayed. The inspiration came from a song by Marvin Sapp that is on constant replay in my subconscious: Here I am;  beautiful song. It says:

here i am,

I'm still standing,

here I am,

after all I've been through

i survived,

every toil, every snare,

I'm alive, I'm alive.

here I am.

I love God, and that's not gonna change in a million years. what's not to love?

He's absolutely amazing. He made me beautiful. [oh and my blog name came from this btw. Hermosa - spanish for beautiful]

So, yea. That goes my blog title. The URL was sorta easy from there.

Oludide. God stood; stood up for me, hence, the reason why i'm still standing.

My blog would be my own space for expressing myself in ways that speaking won't allow me. It's not going to be a religious blog but there would be traces of that; at times. My spirituality cannot be separated from me.

And... that's it.

I'm officially a blogger,

and that's one decision I would not regret.

I hope?